Begging for a lift

New Vogue Outtakes:


Mary-Kate Olsen - Leaving her Apartment in NYC
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Ashley Olsen - Outside NYC's Sant Ambroeus

The monster inside me,
he can't be talked out of anything.
He's got an appetite.
No, he's hungry now.
I've just gotta restrain him.
The seam inside me grows.
Kiss your better half goodbye.

And all those things you trusted in. Come and gone.
The man that you pride yourself on. Come and gone.
All the control you think you hold. Come and gone.
Anything that can go wrong will find itself come and gone.

His body lies broken.
Hey, some harsh words were spoken.
I feel terrible.
It just got away.
Had to make him pay
for the hole in my heart.
It's been my fault from the start.

"Please, God," she whispered into the palm of her hand. "Please make me disappear." She squeezed her eyes shut. Little parts of her body faded away. Now slowly, now with a rush. Slowly again. Her fingers went, one by one; then her arms disappeared all the way to the elbow. Her feet now. Yes, that was good. The legs all at once. It was the hardest above the thighs. She had to be real still and pull. Her stomach would not go. But finally it, too, went away. Then her chest, her neck. The face was hard, too. Almost done, almost. Only her tight, tight eyes were left. They were always left.

Try as she might, she could never get her eyes to disappear. So what was the point? They were everything. Everything was there, in them.

- Toni Morrison, The Bluest Eye

You've got me stuck on repeat
And I just can't seem to break free
You've got me stuck on repeat
I can only move to the beat

And I don't remember how it started
And I don't know how to stop
But every time I reach the bottom
Something pulls me right back to the top
'Cause

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- Little Boots, "Stuck on Repeat"

Hi, just a few icons of one of the Olsen twins. I'm not entirely sure which twin it is ( I know, I suck), so let me know if you do! Thanks!
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lines_you_amend  let me know that this is Mary Kate, so thank you very much.


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I've done so little
but it's taken so long

Another deep depression
The calm before the storm
The shaking in your head
How you sacrificed - how you paid the price
All the words you wish you had said

It's the rawest of emotions
Drinking to forget - names written in the snow
It's the anxious feel - purging your last meal
It's the secret that you can't know

- scarling, "city noise"

Strange to know nothing, never to be sure
Of what is true or right or real,
But forced to qualify or so I feel,
Or Well, it does seem so:
Someone must know.

Strange to be ignorant of the way things work:
Their skill at finding what they need,
Their sense of shape, and punctual spread of seed,
And willingness to change;
Yes, it is strange,

Even to wear such knowledge—for our flesh
Surrounds us with its own decisions—
And yet spend all our life on imprecisions,
That when we start to die
Have no idea why.

According to Dr. Oz, these are the symptoms of depression:

•Loss of interest in things you enjoy
•Changes in weight or appetite
•Change in sleeping patterns
•Feeling of sadness, guilt and hopelessness
•Making other people feel depressed and pointless (bringing other people down)

Many people in this community have probably experienced depression. Do you agree with this list of symptoms? Would you add or remove any? Have you ever experienced any of these (presumably yes, since this is an ED community)? What did you do to recover?

Hi everybody! I'm looking for somebody who's good at making websites to help me out.
For the past few years, I've been running the Purple Ribbon Campaign, which raises money for local charities that support people's recovery. Well, the campaign has grown a lot since it started, and it's outgrown its freewebs.com page. I want to get a domain name and make it a nice website...but I'm a dunce at html and the like.

Is there anybody who's up for a holiday project who knows stuff about making websites and who wants to help?

For more info on the campaign, here's the current website http://www.freewebs.com/edawareness/ and the facebook group http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#/group.php?gid=2233086041

Reply to this or message me if you're able to help!

Or, if you want to help raise money for any of the dozens of support centres around the world that I'm trying to raise money for, let me know. Every little bit counts.
Thanks!

Hello! My name is Serafina. I am in recovery from an eating disorder and I used to be active on this community on my old username (gasping) but I somehow forgot about it when I moved journals - shame on me!

However, since I've joined again today, I wanted to make a post about this new and exciting project in my life called Her Power. It's an internet-based organization geared toward women that seeks to raise, promote, and spread awareness of the power that creative expression can possess in overcoming unhealthy coping behaviors, painful life experiences, and emotional stress; it will begin launching in January 2010 from its website at www.herpower.org.

We have a facebook fan page here, http://www.facebook.com/herpower, as well. I'm an alum of The Renfrew Center of Florida and I speak there often. I recently presented my plans for Her Power and received an overwhelming response of amazing feedback which only served to fan my creative fire even more. :)

If this cause interests you at all, please fan us on facebook! As I noted, the site will be up in January.

Also, for those of you in or around Nashville, Tennessee - I will be presenting at Middle Tennessee State University on February 23, 2010 during National Eating Disorders Awareness Week and everyone is invited! Comment and/or email me for more info.

I would also love more responses to this survey I created on the power of creative expression in recovery and I'm currently accepting submissions of creative work for the website!

Feel free to contact me either by commenting on this entry or emailing me at SERAFINA at HERPOWER dot ORG! Thank you so much for reading, keep creating and shining :)

~Serafina

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I am not going to set myself free here
I am following some dark fortune
Some circle in me

Hold back the wind
Hold back the rain
I want to live
To see good weather

Hold back the years
Hold back the hours
I want to live
To see the sun break through
These days

Under this weather
Under this weather
Such shadows are blossoming
In me

- Patrick Wolf, "The Weather"

She's hiding, she's hiding on a battleship of baggage and bones
There's thunder, there's lightning in an avalanche of faces you know

Heaven can wait
and hell's too far ago
Somewhere between
what you need and what you know
And they're trying to drive that escalator into the ground

- Charlotte Gainsbourg, "Heaven Can Wait"

walk the line and pay the price
a pound of flesh for paradise
wear the wounds of your demise
a pound of flesh for paradise

10 years, "all your lies"

how small do you want me to be?
weighed in the balance,
left lonely
so much can be said through silence;
as hard as it seems,
all that we need is too close to be seen

10 years, "seasons to cycles"

Life is not easy for any of us.
But what of that?
We much have perseverance and above all confidence in ourselves.
We must believe that we are gifted for something and that this thing must be obtained.
--Marie Curie

Maybe not ED-specific, but an amazing inspiration to me.

"[An eating disroder] is, at the most basic level, a bundle of contradictions: a desire for power that strips you of all power. A gesture of strength that divests you of all strength."

— Marya Hornbacher